The past few weeks my brain has been working overtime. I have been plagued with the racing thoughts and the impulses to act upon a few of the "out there" thoughts. My bank account is in the red....all I wanted was to buy myself a little happy, only to find out you can't buy yourself a little happy only trigger the impulse to want to spend, spend, spend.
I wanted change, I needed change so for the past 3 Wednesday's I have gotten my hair cut. My hair that 3 weeks ago was a little past my shoulders and great is now chin length and terrible. Today I made it worse....I ended up with bangs and I can't stand bangs on myself...they just don't work out for me.
This past weekend I took a fly by the seat of my pants road trip to see a male friend that I had no business going to see. Change, I was seeking change....change of scenery....change in everything.
Yesterday, I saw the head doc and she changed some meds around adding one and taking away two...is that good? I don't feel like it is going to be a good thing since one of the meds that was taken from my regime was my sleeping pill. I have yet to pick up the new Seroquel XR and see if it is any better then the regular Seroquel that the side effects out weighed the benefits.
I can only say, lets see what happens and hope that I can hop off this bipolar rollercoaster.
