Easter?

Good Morning...or is it Goodnight?

As many people are rising early to attend "sunrise services" for Easter...I will be going to bed. I took a different route this year and I attended the Russian Orthodox Easter service at midnight.

It was definitely experience and it was a lot of information to take in all at once. I am most definitely still curious!

Happy Easter, Y'ALL!

Voice Mail

Am I the only one that rather leave a message and the person call me back, but I hate when someone leaves me a message?

I hate when my phone dings to let me know that I have a v.mail....hate it....I cringe and I think I have a small panic attack. NOT COOL. I rather call the person back and see what they wanted than listen to that message.

My mom is notorious for leaving "mean" messages, it is like she is mad because I didn't answer. She claims she doesn't leave "mean" messages, but I tell you they are mean...tone counts as mean!
Way back when I still had a land line I purposely DID NOT have an answering machine...until one year for my birthday my mom bought me a new phone with a fancy answering machine on it. Great.

I like the time before you set up your v.mail on your cellophone because...HA..."this person has not set up v.mail" take that person that was gonna leave a not nice message!!! Thank goodness for visual v.mail because I can delete if I suspect that it is going to be one of those not nice messages without even having to listen to it. Right now I have 3 from one person that I know are NOT nice but I am a little curious...but I don't know if I am brave enough to listen.

LIFE

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

Mother Teresa

Today I will be greatful for where I am now

My life might not be perfect, and I might not have achieved the goals I

thought I would have by now -- I might not be living the kind of life I

thought I would be or want to be, but I'm grateful for this day, right

now, and the fact that I've made a commitment to myself to live a life

in which I'm treated with respect and dignity.

I will use this day as a gift, one that I've given myself because I deserve

it. I will use this day to be glad for all I've accomplished.

I'm deserving, worthy, and valuable.

I'm a lovable person, and today I thank the person who helped me

understand this: me.

50 ways to spread the happy virus

1. Throw away your bad mood.
2. Smile at random strangers.
3. Talk to someone you don't know.
4. Hold the door for others.
5. Think before you speak.
6. Give someone a compliment.
7. Answer the phone cheerfully.
8. Tell yourself you're awesome.
9. Listen attentively to others.
10. Share a great song with a friend.
11. Email a friend from the past.
12. Point out the good in a bad situation.
13. Leave a nice tip for a good server.
14. Donate things you don't need anymore.
15. Send flowers to someone you love.
16. Buy a book you know a friend will enjoy.
17. Volunteer at a local charity for a day.
18. Watch something funny and really laugh.
19. Tweet about someone else's post.
20. Leave a nice comment on a FB wall.
21. Write someone you love a note.
22. Bring a treat to a good friend.
23. Sponsor someone else's dream.
24. Leave a really thoughtful comment on a blog.
25. Hug as if it is the last time.
26. Hold someone's hand unexpectedly.
27. Let an argument go....just walk away.
28. Act extra happy to see someone.
29. Celebrate someone as if it is his/her birthday.
30. Tell someone what they mean to you.
31. Send an out-of-the-blue e-card.
32. Visit someone who is sick (and bring soup!).
33. Do someone else's chore without complaining.
34. Wake up with a smile on you face.
35. Sing a song just for fun.
36. Take care of plans so no one else has to.
37. Play with someone (dog, kid, adult) for an hour.
38. Watch a happy movie with a relative.
39. Put on your favorite outfit and a smile.
40. Look for details and share them with someone.
41. Let someone do something for you.
42. Take a bug outside instead of killing it.
43. Invite someone new to do something with you.
44. Be silly with someone special.
45. Mean it when you say, "Have a nice day!"
46. Lend someone something of value.
47. Make something (food, art, etc.) for someone.
48. Resolve to let a past conflict go.
49. Let someone else go first.
50. Be happy with who you are.

Personal Bill Of Rights

I have the right to make my own choices.

I have the right to follow my own values and standards, as long as I am not abusive towards others.

I have a right to dignity and respect.

I have a right to all of my feelings.

I have the right to express myself as long as

I am not abusive toward others.

I have a right to determine and honor my own priorities.

I have a right to recognize and accept my own value system as appropriate.

I have a right to have my needs and wants respected by others.

I have the right to say no when I feel I am not ready, unsafe, or if it violates my values

I have the right to make mistakes and not have to be perfect.

I have the right not to be responsible for others behavior, actions, feelings or problems.

I have a right to be uniquely me, without feeling I’m not good enough.

I have the right to make decisions based on my feelings and judgment for any reason.

I have the right to change my mind at any time.

I have the right to my personal space and time needs.

I have the right to be flexible and be comfortable with doing so.

I have the right to be in a safe, non-abusive environment.

I have the right to forgive others and forgive myself.

I have the right to give and receive unconditional love.

I have the right to enjoy being sexual and celebrate my sexuality.

I have the right to my own spiritual beliefs and to celebrate them.

I have the right to grieve when I don’t get what I need.

I have the right to grieve when I get something I didn’t need or want.

I have the right to joyfully receive without feeling guilty.

I have the right to healthy relationships of my choice.

I have the right to be angry with someone I love.

I have the right to be, and can be, healthier than those around me.

I have the right to trust others who earn my trust.

I have the right to terminate conversations for any reason.

I have a right to expect honesty from others.

I have the right to change and grow.

I have the right to follow my own path.

I have the right to be happy.


Now if I could just live by these, I would be doing good.

Living Life on a Rollercoaster

The past few weeks my brain has been working overtime. I have been plagued with the racing thoughts and the impulses to act upon a few of the "out there" thoughts. My bank account is in the red....all I wanted was to buy myself a little happy, only to find out you can't buy yourself a little happy only trigger the impulse to want to spend, spend, spend.

I wanted change, I needed change so for the past 3 Wednesday's I have gotten my hair cut. My hair that 3 weeks ago was a little past my shoulders and great is now chin length and terrible. Today I made it worse....I ended up with bangs and I can't stand bangs on myself...they just don't work out for me.

This past weekend I took a fly by the seat of my pants road trip to see a male friend that I had no business going to see. Change, I was seeking change....change of scenery....change in everything.

Yesterday, I saw the head doc and she changed some meds around adding one and taking away two...is that good? I don't feel like it is going to be a good thing since one of the meds that was taken from my regime was my sleeping pill. I have yet to pick up the new Seroquel XR and see if it is any better then the regular Seroquel that the side effects out weighed the benefits.

I can only say, lets see what happens and hope that I can hop off this bipolar rollercoaster.